"trouble is our only defense against boredom!"

5:39pm: the day is beautiful and i feel beatuiful along with it. I saw two birds fying together today and i now know that spring is truly here. today walking down town with two of my friends. now the mom is yelling i got to go.

11:28am: The days are dreary yet life goes on. I feel alone yet at the same time happy. Part of me is missing yet i don't know what. The world is spinning and everything changing only i stay the same. I sometimes feel as if the only person who really knows me is drifting away. I am losing my best friend. he is my world, the only one who i can really talk to. We used to talk all the time, but now the talks are less and more time in between. Change has also taken him into her fowl grasp. Any of the person i once knew is now destroyed, and a asshole is being put in his place. Whenever i try to talk to him about it he says it's not true and he is not changing, and i am. That to is true. We are both changing and being pulled apart. I though am fighting it and trying to get back to the familiar. Since he is not i guess that we were not as good of friends as i thought we were.

5:14pm: yup...

5:00pm: Unfortunately a person can not take there friends advice on love because it is different for everyone. My friend say i am just silly and that these feelings i have for him will just go away once i have him like always. But this time i feel different. It's not like the others. He is not like the others. He is quiet sweet and nice. My best friend says these are the exact reasons why i should not even attempt. I should just leave him alone. I have tried that and it has not yet worked. I have tried to ignore my feelings but whenever i see him then return full force. I do not know what to do....